COLLEGE: no money to dry my clothes

won't you please get close to me ?

come on, come on, come on, come on and dance with me.

i've got a ghost mouth, with a ghost frown

and i'm too scared to get out and get it to heaven

i got to quit staying home, gotta get outta here

it just hasn't been home, since you haven't been here

i'm still here, still here

remember when everyone was sleeping

we snuck out and wrote our names on cold cement

i tried to find them the next day but they were gone

i saw two shooting stars and you saw none

but still, that was nice

buh bum. buh bum. buh bum.

why do so many things make me sad even when i'm really not. and why do i feel weird all the time, like i'm always falling apart.

we're all just freaks and geeks

sometimes life feels like that nitratey filler shit they put in big macs----------so blah

blahblah

what am i doing

WE ALL JUST WANT A FAMILY

[[daddy says i got two]]]

WHAT? WHY?

I'll see it with you over thanksgiving and we can dress up and pretend it's the premiere :)

There is much beauty here because there is much beauty everywhere.

how could we be capable of forgetting the old myths that stand at the threshold of all mankind, myths of dragons transforming themselves a the last moment into princesses? Perhaps all dragons in our lives are really princesses just waiting to see us just once being beautiful and courageous.

-Rainer Maria Rilke

It really hits her when the goodbyes happen

This life of loss, fights and funerals too

The new people we meet and the new babies

Just don't affect us the way those things do

She says maybe it's just that humans aren't equipped to feel improvements

But maybe it's just things happen fast and new old friends take time.

all this won't last forever.

day by day and i think this is the way it will go, but nothing even feels like reality right now, let alone eternity.

so is this my life?